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Saturday, June 15, 2013
IDK
June 15.
Hello.
I'm just going to say every fricken thing that's on my mind because I can't keep it bottled up anymore. Where to even start...
So basically the last maybe 2 months have been really good. Of course not everything has been perfect, but in terms of my social life, it's improved a lot. James told me he didn't want to be in the same group but it just so happened that we landed in the same group - George, Gabi, Ceci and some others. We started hanging out all together- going to OG School and playing Truth or Dare, going to the beach and joining up with Andres and Sean, and hanging out with Gabi and the organ. I laughed so much then and was so happy that I finally had a group with cute guys in it, and was staying up late. It felt like I actually belonged. You see, for so long I have just settled out of timidness. I accept a group figuring that I can't do better but secretly knowing I can. Even when I was friends with Amie, Sydney, Grace etc. I was never really happy; I wasn't immediately included in on things and although Nick and Robbie were in the group I had no interest in them. So overall I may have been happy to have a group, but I felt awkward with them. When I joined James' group it just felt normal. They were certainly more edgy and perhaps didn't have as good a reputation as my previous group but I felt cool with them. The weird thing is the group was the best when Sydney and George broke up. Only then did James and I really start hanging out with George, Ceci, and Gabi. The funny thing is, once things started getting really good - specifically the weekend when we all went to the beach, and then to Fernanda's, then to Adam's only to then go to the beach the next day with George and Gabi, babysitting, and back with George and Gabi to check out karoake and then do karaoke at Gabi's house. That was probably the best weekend I've had so far this year, if not of all my years. Things were so good, and I'm a strong believer in good/bad luck. Naturally, I started thinking that things were too good. I mean, in a way I felt that this was the high school life that most people have experienced - hanging out every day, staying up late, doing crazy things, and just being with an attractive group of kids. There was also a feeling though that I got which was that it all was going to end. That there was no way things could be this good for this long - even if it did seem like I deserved it. Well, I think I jinxed myself. Sure enough the following weekend, which I believe was Memorial Day Weekend, I didn't do anything. I never ended up going to the concert with Ceci or Fernanda in Boston. George didn't have his car which meant that basically everyone was stuck at home, and Gabi cancelled on me. It sucked. It reminded me of earlier in the year, when for weeks straight people cancelled plans with me and I was left desperately trying to make plans last minute on a weekend night. I guess it was a bit of a humbling weekend, to remind me how lucky I was to finally have a group. Then the following weekend things just weren't the same. Before the Governor's Ball, on Friday night, I didn't do anything. Then, the Governor's Ball was really fun - I don't know that I can see myself with Andres but he is definitely attractive and fun to be around. We all were dancing like idiots but it was ok. We all were just equally awkward. So that was really fun, made up for the last weekend. Then in school I started to notice that James was drifting away. He didn't sit at our table anymore and he wasn't hanging out with George at all anymore. Instead, he was talking a lot with Sydney Hone. That's basically how it is now - we switched groups. I'm now friends with his old group, mainly Ceci, Fernanda, Gabi, George, and Adam and he's friends with my old group - Amie, Sydney, and Nicole. It's sad that we can't go back to the way things used to be, you know? Now my mom's telling James he shouldn't hang out with the "Three Musketeers" and James doesn't really want me hanging out with his old group. It seems like there's no right answer, no right turn. No matter what there will always be drama. Hopefully with the arrival of summer though things will shake out. Of course not everything will be perfect, but at least we won't all see each other every single day at school. I'm also hoping to occupy my time with learning the guitar (first I have to get one) and even maybe getting a high quality camera. I really enjoy taking photos, even more so videos, and adding music to them. It's always something I've been interested in but never thought I could actually do. Now I realize that I can change things and hopefully convince my parents. It would occupy my time for days when I'm bored and no one's around. On top of that, it really makes me happy! I get really into it.
That's all I can write for now, which is a pretty substantial amount.
Possibly more tomorrow.. who knows.
Here's to good grades on the finals and a start to summer.
XOXO
Maddie
Hello.
I'm just going to say every fricken thing that's on my mind because I can't keep it bottled up anymore. Where to even start...
So basically the last maybe 2 months have been really good. Of course not everything has been perfect, but in terms of my social life, it's improved a lot. James told me he didn't want to be in the same group but it just so happened that we landed in the same group - George, Gabi, Ceci and some others. We started hanging out all together- going to OG School and playing Truth or Dare, going to the beach and joining up with Andres and Sean, and hanging out with Gabi and the organ. I laughed so much then and was so happy that I finally had a group with cute guys in it, and was staying up late. It felt like I actually belonged. You see, for so long I have just settled out of timidness. I accept a group figuring that I can't do better but secretly knowing I can. Even when I was friends with Amie, Sydney, Grace etc. I was never really happy; I wasn't immediately included in on things and although Nick and Robbie were in the group I had no interest in them. So overall I may have been happy to have a group, but I felt awkward with them. When I joined James' group it just felt normal. They were certainly more edgy and perhaps didn't have as good a reputation as my previous group but I felt cool with them. The weird thing is the group was the best when Sydney and George broke up. Only then did James and I really start hanging out with George, Ceci, and Gabi. The funny thing is, once things started getting really good - specifically the weekend when we all went to the beach, and then to Fernanda's, then to Adam's only to then go to the beach the next day with George and Gabi, babysitting, and back with George and Gabi to check out karoake and then do karaoke at Gabi's house. That was probably the best weekend I've had so far this year, if not of all my years. Things were so good, and I'm a strong believer in good/bad luck. Naturally, I started thinking that things were too good. I mean, in a way I felt that this was the high school life that most people have experienced - hanging out every day, staying up late, doing crazy things, and just being with an attractive group of kids. There was also a feeling though that I got which was that it all was going to end. That there was no way things could be this good for this long - even if it did seem like I deserved it. Well, I think I jinxed myself. Sure enough the following weekend, which I believe was Memorial Day Weekend, I didn't do anything. I never ended up going to the concert with Ceci or Fernanda in Boston. George didn't have his car which meant that basically everyone was stuck at home, and Gabi cancelled on me. It sucked. It reminded me of earlier in the year, when for weeks straight people cancelled plans with me and I was left desperately trying to make plans last minute on a weekend night. I guess it was a bit of a humbling weekend, to remind me how lucky I was to finally have a group. Then the following weekend things just weren't the same. Before the Governor's Ball, on Friday night, I didn't do anything. Then, the Governor's Ball was really fun - I don't know that I can see myself with Andres but he is definitely attractive and fun to be around. We all were dancing like idiots but it was ok. We all were just equally awkward. So that was really fun, made up for the last weekend. Then in school I started to notice that James was drifting away. He didn't sit at our table anymore and he wasn't hanging out with George at all anymore. Instead, he was talking a lot with Sydney Hone. That's basically how it is now - we switched groups. I'm now friends with his old group, mainly Ceci, Fernanda, Gabi, George, and Adam and he's friends with my old group - Amie, Sydney, and Nicole. It's sad that we can't go back to the way things used to be, you know? Now my mom's telling James he shouldn't hang out with the "Three Musketeers" and James doesn't really want me hanging out with his old group. It seems like there's no right answer, no right turn. No matter what there will always be drama. Hopefully with the arrival of summer though things will shake out. Of course not everything will be perfect, but at least we won't all see each other every single day at school. I'm also hoping to occupy my time with learning the guitar (first I have to get one) and even maybe getting a high quality camera. I really enjoy taking photos, even more so videos, and adding music to them. It's always something I've been interested in but never thought I could actually do. Now I realize that I can change things and hopefully convince my parents. It would occupy my time for days when I'm bored and no one's around. On top of that, it really makes me happy! I get really into it.
That's all I can write for now, which is a pretty substantial amount.
Possibly more tomorrow.. who knows.
Here's to good grades on the finals and a start to summer.
XOXO
Maddie
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